Monday, January 18, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 10:09 PM
180110- Brendon had left us.
I couldn't get myself to bed the night before they found Brendon's body.
I kept on waking up in the middle of the night, checked my phone, hope to receive some messages from friends saying that they found Brendon ALIVE or maybe his body.
i went to school with a pair of swallon eyes.
i had been crying for more than 7 hours. friends started to ask what's going on and i cant control my tears.
i cried in class so badly. i hope i can see him appear in front of me.
i hope he can still call me bro. i cant even get a chance to hear him call me bro again.
Brendon, i cant even get a chance to say thank you in face to face anymore.
Suddenly i miss him so much and there are alot of things that i wanted to tell him.
I pray so hard, everyone pray so hard that God will bring them back safely but no, God didnt brought them back. God brought them along.
I was telling Fze that he will be safe and i got the chance to talk to him and hear him laugh. but everything was just a dream. DREAM. we cant hear his laughter again.
Brendon, we all miss you so much.
i had been so worried and scared bout it when ChingWen told me.
i dont want to lose a friend. i dont want.
but i just did. everyone just did.
the apoms family lost 2 apoms at the same time.
Brendon, why you wanna leave us? i know you for only 6 months and i had been crying for days.
Brendon, can you hear me?
IMY, B.
i miss you calling me bro! i miss you calling me bro!
and God just dont give me another chance to hear it. we all dont have a chance to hear your laughter and your PeterChao's style of talking anymore.
the last message from you was Jan 13th.
you were asking me when can you pass the shirt to me. i replied CNY hols.
but sadly, you made Alvin to get it himself. Brendon...
its his present remember?
R.I.P Brendon.
