Sunday, January 24, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 6:19 PM
240110- B's birthday.
my mood wasnt alright. but then i got friends who cheer me up. =)
i feel like dying this morning.
i was listening to LeeHom's HeartBeat and i sang while im cleaning my room.
i was sad. i miss him.
i text Mr.Yam. and i asked him to tell me stupid things and hell, he did.
he asked me,
why birds can fly?
Scroll down for answer
(p/s: i dont have to scroll down at all.)
because birds got wings.
he made me speechless but that is what i ask for. something stupid.
i tried not to drop another tear as i promised myself and its B's birthday.
i kept on repeating listening to the song.
i told mrYam and Bug bout something and i feel much better. =)
i still need some time to get the pain outta here.
but i know, i cant.
i mean. its not easy. i know.
im glad that they are doing great up there. RIP people.
people from the land will love and miss you guys.
you guys will not be forgotten =]
yesterday the families had brought their ashes to a new place.
B's at kek lok si.
CHEER, HAZELL. CHEER.
CHEER EVERYONE!
-You live in my heart. Everytime my heart beats, i will think of you. i will not forget about you until the day my heart stop beating. I dont know how to describe how much I miss you. i feel the emptiness after you left but i will be alright. =) Happy Birthday, my dearest friend, Brendon. =D-
ILY, We all love you,Brendon.
Happy Birthday again, my dearest friend
Saturday, January 23, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 8:50 PM
230110- Day before B's birthday.
my mood wasnt that good since the accident, i thought i will be okay after everyone's funeral.
but i guess i was wrong. im not.
God brought all of em go to a better place, i know.
my mood is weird. totally weird.
everything had changed, friends had left. like what Giselle said, Life must still carry on.
i'm tired. i never know that i was this tired until everything is over.
why i still cant control my emotional??
Brendon, this name never get out of my mind before.
i miss him everyday in school.
i cant feel anything now, im numb.
the pain is still there. my heart is still havent recover.
IM IN PAIN.
i dont know how to describe my pain. it kills!!
Sis B, God had brought you away from us. but i know God will brought you to a better place. be a good kid there right? =)
Happy Birthday in Advance, my dear B.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 6:07 AM
190110- Went to B's funeral.i cried so badly in school today and i cant stop crying.
there's a feeling that i dont know what to say and how to express.
i just cant accept the fact that they are gone.
i cant get to see B's smile and his lame jokes again. i had been crying so badly since the day they went missing.
i know B is listening to us and he is watching us.
i dont want him to be sad. he is a happy go lucky guy.
why God wanna took all those guai kia away and left those mat rempit here in this world.
B left Alvin alone and didnt took the shirt for me.
i cant believe that im attending my friend's funeral.
Alvin says i must change for B. be strong because of B. i should change my attitude for B.
i will Alvin, i will.
going to send B for his last journey tmrw.
R.I.P, Brendon, Jason, Yi Zhang others and teacher.
Monday, January 18, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 10:09 PM
180110- Brendon had left us.
I couldn't get myself to bed the night before they found Brendon's body.
I kept on waking up in the middle of the night, checked my phone, hope to receive some messages from friends saying that they found Brendon ALIVE or maybe his body.
i went to school with a pair of swallon eyes.
i had been crying for more than 7 hours. friends started to ask what's going on and i cant control my tears.
i cried in class so badly. i hope i can see him appear in front of me.
i hope he can still call me bro. i cant even get a chance to hear him call me bro again.
Brendon, i cant even get a chance to say thank you in face to face anymore.
Suddenly i miss him so much and there are alot of things that i wanted to tell him.
I pray so hard, everyone pray so hard that God will bring them back safely but no, God didnt brought them back. God brought them along.
I was telling Fze that he will be safe and i got the chance to talk to him and hear him laugh. but everything was just a dream. DREAM. we cant hear his laughter again.
Brendon, we all miss you so much.
i had been so worried and scared bout it when ChingWen told me.
i dont want to lose a friend. i dont want.
but i just did. everyone just did.
the apoms family lost 2 apoms at the same time.
Brendon, why you wanna leave us? i know you for only 6 months and i had been crying for days.
Brendon, can you hear me?
IMY, B.
i miss you calling me bro! i miss you calling me bro!
and God just dont give me another chance to hear it. we all dont have a chance to hear your laughter and your PeterChao's style of talking anymore.
the last message from you was Jan 13th.
you were asking me when can you pass the shirt to me. i replied CNY hols.
but sadly, you made Alvin to get it himself. Brendon...
its his present remember?
R.I.P Brendon.
Saturday, January 16, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 12:31 AM
150110- second week of school.school had started for 2 weeks and i was vry busy for the whole week.
when im busy i can stop thinking of him, and i thought i already put him down.
but, when i stop everything, i realise that he is still in my heart.
no matter how busy i am, there is always a time for me to think of him.
until today, i still can see his smile and his features very clearly.
is it because that his everything deeply carved in my heart?
E, i want you back so badly!
160808. i cant forget that moment. i cant. i still love you, E.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 10:32 PM
060110- second day of school.everything went fine in school except for the 5 period of assemble.
urgh wtf.
luckily is my last year sitting in the hall every first assemble of the year, listening the teacher to talk about school rules to us. urgh, its BORING.
now, my school got into new rules. =D
they made a book which all of our school rules will be inside and we need to get both of our parents to sign on it.
which means, if our parents sign and still go to school to cari pasal with teachers means its OUR wrong. as the school-rules book has everything written down inside.wtf right? kinda stupid.
somehow its to prevent stupid parents to bring some unwanted problems to school. urgh.
again, LUCKILY ITS MY LAST YEAR.
gosh.
school is getting worse and worse each year.
cool school dont have remove classes and what my school has? 4 bloody class of removes. for the idiots.
i hate remove class students. not all but most of it. *shakes head*
p/s: i hate form1 students
Sunday, January 3, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 5:28 PM
030110- fever day. =(woke up in the early morning, i felt that my body is burning. went to check my temperature and im 37.6 degrees. TT.
school reopen tomorrow and i havent got my exercise books yet! wtf weh!
and i went to clinic just now and the doctor said i got high fever!
i need to take 6 pills and 3 times a day! meanss...
18 PILLS A DAY! ahhhhhhhhhh!
school starts tomorrow and i cant wait to get back to school. <3
Friday, January 1, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 11:10 PM
010110- First damn day of 2010.Another had gone, and guess what. yesterday i was hoping to see that jerk in queens.
i went there with cousin and i couldnt believe that i wore slippers, shorts and Equator's art camp shirt. the worse was i tied up my hair.
And i bumped into a lot of friends which i dont wanna meet either one of em'.
i had tried to avoid em' but they came to talk to me.
i kept both of my eyes on my slippers, pying's eyes, chingwen's boobs, alvin's bag, hao's "dont look down" 's shirt and my phone. i dare not to take a peep at entao bahs! wth.
im so afraid to see him. but thank god, i didnt even see his mother fucker face.
im so down yesterday when im on the way to Queens. HELL
hello, why do i feel this way??
i walked all the way and im hoping to see him but i dont want to see his face! wtf is going on with me?
im f5 now. and things happened when im f3! bloody 2 years! HELLO!
i always thought that i dont like him anymore but what is this? i was crying for him again??
i dont want!
CHNG EUGENE! all thanks to you!
i cant bloody get out of that kind of life.
do you know how much it hurts??
do you know how deep it is?
if theres a chance to be with you, I WANT. please keep it for me.
Happy New Year. 2010
