Wednesday, March 17, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 1:08 AM
179310-2nd month.time flies really fast. we had lost em for the 2nd month.
i can feel the painnn. the pain is still around us.
i dont want to forget about this.
i feel the pain. bottom of my heart. it really really hurts.
Saturday, March 6, 2010♥♥♥
withLove; 10:25 PM
6thmarch2010-
time flies, i cant believe that its the 48days they left us.
i wonder why, i was so moody for the past few days. i am moody now.
tomorrow is march 7th and its their 49 days.
i dont know what to say. but im really moody.
since the accident, i couldnt cheer myself up.
this week worst.
i dont know when it started, but i know my mood got worse and worse since monday.
sudah one week..my mood is still the same. no one can cheer me up.
i cried myself to bed every night.
i cant hold back my tears..its hard..really hard..
idk what had happen to me..
i really miss him..
i dont know how to describe my miss-brendon-ness.
its like..too much..
how can i get over it?
when i was young, i read alot of news about teenagers' death. i saw alot of teenagers lost their friends. i felt sad for the friends.
so, i started to have this question in my mind.
what is feels like to lost someone around us.
i even asked my mom once, what is the friends' feelings
i cant believe that it happened to me at the age of 17.
finally i know what is the feeling.
i dont like it. I HATE IT!
I HATE IT ALOT!
oh, God. please be the first and last time. i dont want to lost any of my friends again.
i feel heartache.
no one in this house knows that im moody. I DONT LIKE TO BE MOODY.
I DONT LIKE IT.
but..i just cant control it. i just cant....
R.I.P guys.
i miss you, B! i really do miss you. i dont know how describe how much i miss you but i want to let you know i miss you alot, B. alot!
i can see you smile, i can hear you jokes. but everything was a dream. only a dream.