Tuesday, November 17, 2009♥♥♥
withLove; 9:13 AM
After 10 days of exam finally its over. its kinda stress though. Well, after this thursday i need to start prepare for my form5 thing. Time flies. after a month im a 17 year old girl who needs to face SPM and the society soon. i dont feel like studying actually. Can i stay in secondary school and i dont wanna graduate. its scaryyyyy. urgh. i rather stay inside the school and gossip bout others and let others gossip bout me.urghhh. i dont know what will happen next year. i wanted to study hard but..i..dont like to study. really. i mean who likes study right? but im in a different case. i dont like books at all. i prefer art. not that kind of drawing type of art. as if, culinary art, photography, hair designer..etc..if i am a culinary art student, i can cook delicious food with nice design on it. and kitchen will be my second home.if i am a photographer, i can go around the world to take nice photos back and share with everyone. i got my own freedom, i dont have to work in a place. i am free.if i am a hair designer, i can design cool hair style for people. and of course, i can have cool hair style too. slowly i will get my own shop, my own business then branch by branch.i wanted to study IT too but my cousin said it is hard to master it. so forget about it.i prefer art. i dont wanna work under pressure and only can get that kind of salary. i want to wear OL clothes but i guess...it will never happen..im not OL type of person..i want freedom. chef? culinary art? photography? hair designer?which one is better?i want to be a famous photographer but im lack of gadgets. how am i gonna take nice pics if im lack of gadgets? i can i know. but it will be better if i got higher-end of gadgets.i want a wide lens, i want a external flash light. daddy, please get me.-its november now. Nov 2008, i would not be here blogging alone. my phone would not be so silent.i would not be so emo. i would not staring at the monitor and listening to the song alone.i would not drop a tear.Oh dear, i wanted to forget about him. but how...?
